Fiserv..after 1 year!!

It seems as if it was just yesterday when I got an e-mail from HR briefing the interview procedure and me confused on that e-mail gathered all my courage to revert back to HR and asked if I am called for the interview. On receiving confirmation, it was like opening an unexpected door. In my full excitement and with all preparations, I reached Fiserv to appear for interview. Interview process was quite cumbersome and I could recall my bad reaction when I was told that there is still one more round pending. Yes, you guessed it right!! I got irritated and made faces. This good news was passed to me by the person who took my first technical round and luckily I could not hide my reactions from him :) :) :) for doing this, fortunately every fortnight I am made to recall that incident grrrrrr!!

Now some you might think why am I being made to bring that exciting incident back in my mind and who is that brave person to do so. This person is none another than my TEAM LEAD and the same guy who took my technical and informed me about that one more round    Just for fun and with the motive of teasing me, he would just not miss the opportunity to remember this incident and I would not miss opportunity to defend myself although I fail whenever I try to do so  

After my joining, as expected from a new joiner I was nervous and in panic!! I had certain standards set up for me and expectations from myself and every day, it seemed to be a fight to come up to those expectations and standards. I could remember my training sessions where I expected to learn about product and every time I used to end up with just lots and lots of yawns in my full spirits 

I remember, once even I slept in the mid of training and when I woke up I started nodding my head so that the trainer could not see my sleepy eyes and yawning face :P

Confused and anxious me, in initial days didn’t know what to talk, when to talk and to whom to talk. I was badly missing my breakfast chit chats, gossips, long long irrelevant senseless discussions. I felt as if I had to behave like any two year experienced serious professional who has lots of knowledge to share with new team. Eyes of team of 10 members + 1 manager were always on me as if I was the only prey for them. Every evening, before leaving for the day I used to have killing session with my then manager. It was like ending up with a test where you know all the questions but when it comes to answers you try to cheat. And guess what, cheat from other’s copies who are equally dumb as you are..he he !!

By God!! Those sessions with manager still make me get goose bumps. Excitement of the whole day used to get over with very first question. I felt to be back in college. To answers utmost one question, I started making notes. Imagine, me making notes!! Goshhhh..

At that time, I experienced some unwanted changes in me like reaching office on time, wearing formals, talking less, listening more, just smiling instead of showing baring teeth.   I missed my personality soooooooo much.

Now, its been ONE year..!! yes ONE year of my association with Fiserv. I have almost changed. Changed my chatting habits, changed my dressing style, changed my party style..almost every trait of my persona has changed and I am just not liking it !!

To begin with, I want you all to know a major unexpected change.. My team lead is my best buddy now  and I hate the fact that I am friends with my ‘lead’.. he he !! ab masti karte hue bhi lagta hai k ‘masti’ task k against kitna time report karna h time sheet me :P Breaks me feel hota h k coffee productive work me kaise count karani h :P mere PJs k liye GPS me kitna score milega ?? he he..!!

Its funny!! But this is the best part of my relationship with Fiserv.

Here go some more unexpected changes 

1. I can never be seen in formals, my jeans seems to be best

2. I can never be seen quietly sitting on my desk

3. Chai after office is an unavoidable task

4. Masti with Soni ( I hope u remember him, I introduced him in my previous write up) is an essential part of office hours :P

5. Giggling and cracking PJs are one of the productive things that I unforgettably do :P

6. I have started doing gunda-gardi 

7. I have started playing pranks ;)

8. Oh!! Not to forget..i have started adding a ;) at the end of messages :P this is my most significant achievement :D

Now, you can expect how considerably I have changed rather improved my hidden talent :P

Thanks Fiserv!! Whole heartedly THANK YOU !!

I remember, when I joined my target was to spend two years in Fiserv and then move on. But, now I just did not feel like thinking of any other option. It seems to be best. Best experience, best thought, best wish..everything appears to have wrapped up here.

Somehow, I am experiencing heights of dosti, heights of appreciation, heights of stupidity, heights of pagalpanti, heights of everything  

It seems that, yes!! This was something for which I have been looking for all these years. Interesting work.. mad frnz who plan every weekend to visit psychiatrist :P gunda gardi..mara peeti..teasing..fighting..argue at every topic yet YADI   BESTEST of YADI..!!

With all this is in heart and dosts in mind, I wish to spend many more coming years here in Fiserv but of course with them.

NO frnz NO Fiserv !!

bak bak

For a change, this time I was in no mood of thinking :P . Tired from ample amount of work in office, lots  of tea breaks and peaceful lunch, GOD knows from where the hell these ‘E n E’ came and compelled me to pen down. Actually keys down !! :P

Hold on, before you start itching your head lemme tell you about these two ghosts.
These ‘E n E’ are nothing but dear “Excitement and Enthusiasm”. Ghost because, they can
not be seen nor touched but just felt. There presence could be just sensed. They can intervene
in life at any time and to any depth they wish to do. These can not be avoided when they
enter life neither they can be called upon when required. But, one thing for sure, they would
never dare to come when they  are most required and will always come when, by heart not required. “wrong timing”..u c !! :))))

last one month..

It has been a month now since I was diagnosed with ‘Tuberculoma’. During this month there have been times when I was completely shaken, I was completely submerged in the so-called darkness of moment, I was extremely happy, I was just surrounded by goodness of the world. At the same, I would not dishonor the fact that somehow I was fortunate to experience most of the human emotions in this time.


Love, Friend, Care, Support, Sadness, Happiness, Isolation, Fear, loathe, Strength and Weakness were merely terms and to some extent a term with a definition. There meaning, the feelings within these words touched me during this time.

These days gave me life-long lessons. I understood what it means to have lots n lots of people besides us: some affectionate and some just for sake.

There is a whole lot of bunch of people around us; Family, Friends, Colleagues, Neighbors, Well-Wishers. Some of these bunches are held tightly to make sure they go nowhere, while some are just ignored considering they are no good to us, and some we take just for granted as if they are going remain with us no matter how we treat with them.

Truly said, it’s only time that can distinguish among good-bad, near-far, love-hatred, like-dislike.

People whom I considered to be mine.. support from whom was most expected, stood at fair distance from me. They were brawny enough to despise me. It was not that disease that broke me but it was this bunch of people that helped me to break down.

People, whom I thought of emotionally weak, stood by me like a pillar each time I was on my knees. I never knew these weak people could be so strong to hold me and them in this time. Although, I never consider this as the toughest stage of my life but when I look into the eyes, peep inside the heart I feel the pain and sorrow they have for me. The support, care I received was overwhelming, somewhat more than expectations.

Friends who were just friends were actual FRIENDS. Whenever, there was darkness all over me they proved to be that single beam of light that could enlighten my way. They were upset but they never let me felt so coz their sadness might become reason for my sadness. There gladness and cheerfulness helped me to come over the pain that somewhere deep in my heart was making its place. At every step they were with me to help me take a step ahead.

There have been moments when I was scared being along in the closed place, when I was scared of closing my eyes, I was scared of walking alone, I was scared of standing in public, I was scared to talk to anyone, when my hands shacked, when I was scared of hearing anything, when I cried whole evening; there ‘he’ stood holding me, giving me that I lost. His strength gave me strength; his voice was my voice; his song was lullaby; there was cover of happiness under his unhappiness; devotion under sacrifice that made me enjoy this not so enjoyable time.

A friend, sometime back fwded me msg that said “It’s worth to have handful of thoughtful n loving people around rather than having tons of selfish.”

I am really thankful to ‘Tuberculoma’ to give me these handful near-dear ones. They actually helped me to realize that m not just another person in their but I own a place and love in their lives..in heart for which I can demand anytime when I am in low spirits. They have full access to demand my love, care; dey have that power that can stop me when my foot goes on wrong step.



I will be really foolish enough iff I’ll let any of these go beyond my hold. No one could be unfortunate than me who can afford to lose them.

Now, I Just wish from God, “Lord, give me strength and patience so that I may hear even a low and single call from them.”

'thank u'

It was late evening yesterday, when something clicked me and I landed up sending an e-mail to a friend. I was not expecting an instantaneous reply but to my surprise in fact to some extent of my expectations I received the reply. His reply made me memorize all these 12 yrs when he had been with me. I was in class VIII th. when I met Anand and since then he has been a friend. A friend who had been there with me through my thick and thin. Every time when I needed a friend, I just looked at him and he was there for me. All these years, I have never “Thank” him for anything, in fact I never felt like saying “Thanks” to him coz he is a Friend.

Today, when I have been given ample amount of time by God I appreciate the kindness surrounding me.  This made me think “am I worth enough to receive this gentleness” or “is this the fine friends around who protects and make me experience such goodness and love “.

 Life has been extremely kind to me to bestow lot of admirable, lovely, compassionate, affectionate, admirable people in the form of friends.

I know I am supposed to say “Thanks” to anyone of you coz that’s not me but standing at this point of life I open my heart with all thanks and warmness for you all.

Big Thank You to you Partner: Dheeraj ; Buddy: Anand, Rajat, Raman, Jet, Soni ; Gang : Shweta, Ila, Poo, Babita, Payal; HUHA : Vaibhav, Nitin, Yashu and now the most important “thanks” to my Lead, my new buddy : SM

You all have been there for me as my companion, my lead, my philosopher…

You have been there to tolerate my silliness..

You have always been there when no one was around to listen to me..

Hope my stupidity will continue to grow and so list of my Big Time Achiever’s ..  :P

a post on fb..

Oh yes !! as title says this post has deep connection with my most favorite social networking site "facebook.com"
It was never an important n interesting link for me till "fiserv" entered life. Now fb is just like a place very near to me where i can blurt out everything and at anytime.
I have started doing too much non stop baatein..uffff !!! chalo so lets get back to topic . So, I was talking about facebook, this whole thing actually evolved  from a status that I posted on Fri eve.
At 10:35 pm on Friday my fb said  "and here the wonderful weekend ends !! off to sleep..Good Night !! buzzzzzz...."
and then n there i received a comment on it that said "Read ur status carefully again.... There lurks a defect in it now..".  This was received from non other than Mr SS..ahh huh !!!! Mr Sumit Soni. Lemme introduce him- He is a colleague cum more of a frnd actually a good frnd. Truly saying I just feel as if I have re-entered my college. My college days once again gets alive when we are around and this makes him "soni" .
We all hve started a game known as "bajoing game". In the regards to this stupid game, on Saturday morning,  finally soni got the chance to play game on his side,usually he is on bajne wali side :P soni, plz plz do mind :P :P
Soni's stupid comment made me realize what i have posted is not correct and I accepted the fact that it was written when I was damn sleepy. This was just the addiction of fb that helped me posting a message with my half eyes closed. But, it was there on fb now and being an obedient player of the game I tried to confront him.  

Doing this, I again gave a thought towards my sleepy fb status. This time I was of second opinion. I thought how exciting and rockin it would be if I swap the two concepts. Lets imagine that "WEEKEND" has good five days while we are fortunate enough to have  boring "WEEK" of just two days. What say ???? :) :)

M damn excited for this new concept, now I can imagine the energy and enthusiasm I'll have while working in office and damn laziness @ home i.e. during weekday :P

Then,I thought people actually want to be just themselves on weekend and this is what I am on weekdays. I feel myself, I feel relaxed, I feel energetic I do what I feel like doing and this is what make me feels like weekend on weekdays.I just carry myself on weekdays,oops!!!! weekend :)

Perhaps, on weekends I become more busy,much occupied with lots of things in my head. As per me and I guess urs too these are symptoms of a heavily scheduled and planned weekday. My each single step is taken in a well planned way and this makes me feel like my weekends are more of weekday.

and thus , I again posted something on my wall on Sunday night on fb that says :
" a hectic "week" ends today..looking for energetic "weekend" ahead :)"


CHEERS !!!!!!!!!!!!!
A happy toast to Weekdahy a.k.a. Weekend  :)   :)