when countdown started..

It was June 7,2010 when it started.
I was in office desperatelt waiting for final letter from my new expected company.I was refreshing my mail box after every 10 min and my eyes were fixed on my desktop.
But by mid-day my desperation was changing into my frustration and irritation.I was damn irritated coz my expectation was over-coming my brain and no comunication from new company was hanging over my head.
On founding myself empty handed even after half-day,I decided not to expect anything and better to leave for home.
By 3:30 in afternoon I was @ home and just to try I checked my mail box.
I was surprised to see the mail from new company and again my sadness changed into happiness.There I remembered words of Dheeraj that he said to me as I was about to leave for home from office.He told me to wait for their mail as he was I dunno hw,but was pretty sure that this would happen.


I was excited as I was about to put up my first resignation and feeling of resigning for first time is just like the wetness from first rain..fear after first bunk..excitement after first success.
I felt as if I have achieved something that was soooo impoertant for me at that time.
In this excitement time passed and it was 6:30 in the evening.I accessed my company's web portal to fill my e-Exit form.
While filling up the form I was thinkin why it took Vineet,my frnd too long to fill up the form.It was small form requiring minimum details.It took me hardly 5 min to fill the form and now I was supposed the click on the "SUBMIT" button on the form.
As I pointed my rat (alias of mouse, u know my studying DB now-a-days)there,something happened.
My hands freezed,mind was not able to take any action.I just could not click on the "SUBMIT" button.Something was stopping me to move ahead.
I read again my form and tried to submit it but this time again I couldn't.
Now I was able to understand why Vineet took 1 hr to submit the form.It was no more fun for me to submit my resignation.
The memories of my first day at NIIT were floating infront of my eyes.The fear that I felt on my first day Jan14,2008 was again in my heart.Its more than 2 yrs now since I have been associated with NIIT.
NIIT as I used to refer to my frnz have second home for me and now it was like parting away from family.I was happy but there was sadness about leaving NIIT deep in my heart. As I remembered my Team Lead,it became more difficult for me to submit my resignation.I could remember the support and appreciation that I received from since I joined my current project.Officially this was my first project and Sushil sir my first TL.I felt as if I am cheating him, his expectations from me.He had lots of expectations from me and surely he never expected me to leave the NIIT specifically my team.
But now it was time for me to go out of this family and explore the world.Meanwhile I was preparing myself to move ahead,I did lots of things some funny some serious. I never planned to write a mail but inorder to prepare myself I not only wrote it but I even mailed it.
I called my bro ane told him the situation.He counted 20 to encouarge me to do it but his tries didnt help me much.
I pinged my frnd Jyotsana telling her my situation and like others she tried to insist me to put it on.But like every effort all went in vain.Thereafter,I realised that its me and only me who could encourage myself to put forward my resignation.
Then I closed my eyes,remembered some good moments and some bad ones, some gr8 people whom I met here and some not so gr8 but nice people, my initial days at NIIT and specifically my project, my TL and his expectations I clicked on "SUBMIT"...and then COUNTDOWN started.