Motherhood- a word or a worLd !!!!!

Its been around 4 years now but picture of those days is still fresh in my black and white yet colorful brainy television. Even today I can very well feel presence of that dirty spook that haunted my home as soon as I completed my studies. Spook was genuinely jealous of my freedom and for this he/ she (dunno spook was male or female) started ringing wedding bells around my house. Hold on, my house was not enough for him/her and that he/she started to instigate even my relatives. Poor me! Tried to fight a lot against this ‘ME’ (its not myself wala ‘me’ but something that I learnt few days back :P) but couldn’t gain much but a lot of daatt and sympathy.

I was so scared! It was just unimaginable for me to get married, have husband and then kids. Over this getting married in joint family was like getting instead of giving ‘dahej’ (Jfyi, giving and taking dowry is a punishable act. lol!!!!! Sorry D!!! J )

Finally nothing could help me much at that time and I got married. Now when its going to be 3yrs of my marriage I can proudly say that I am one of the luckiest person on this earth to have a supportive, loving, caring, pampering husband with an even more co-operative, loving and caring ‘dahej’. Absolutely no guilt of getting married (loads n loads of touchwood!!!!!!!!)

Going back, I could recall those initial 2.5 years of my marriage which were no more than re-living my spinsterhood but this time with a license of doing more gunda-gardi and what they call ‘awaragardi’. I was happy! I was getting all liberty to be just ME(this time myself wala me). Enough space to explore myself, my interest, my personality and the world around me.

After that, over a period of time I started missing something in myself. I started exploring more and more around to satisfy my hunt. But nothing helped!

Then it was just that one moment of one afternoon when I figured it out. It was the feeling of ‘being MOTHER’ that was troubling me BIG time. Dunno when this feeling started popping up in me and I unaware of this, was wandering like anything in the search of something that was hard to be found in the world.

That one spark changed my life. Wet eyes and impatient heart, feeling of missing my own bundle of JOY were the only buddies of that moment.I could believe that being mother, being called as MOM is the only wonderfullest feeling in the world. I realized, seeing my own bundle crawling on the floor, dancing while trying to stand against the wall, saying mummum for water and huppa for chapati, screaming in JOY after looking birds, trying to use my cosmetics, irritating me, waking up in the middle of the night and asking me to play, drawing first painting on the wall, crying on the first day of the school, sharing first love story of childhood, giving a tight slap right on my cheeks and then smiling and saying ‘mumma’ are just few of the moments I would die for.

The thought that was unbelievable for me four years back, now is the only occasion for me celebrate. I never thought that ‘motherhood’, which used to be just a simple word for me, even a few months back, would re-define me.

Motherhood is not a ‘word’ anymore but a ‘WORLD’ to me.

Hoping to get the entry pass to this ‘world, my world’ soon……….

yet another weekend story...

A Wonnnnderful weekend..make sure ur tongue touches upper part of law oops !jaw :p for atleast 5 sec while saying 'n'…

Saturday morning: I was too excited coz it was goin to be x-mas tomorrow and more over just 6 days were left for our most awaited trip to Mussorie. It had been almost a year since we have touched borders of our lovely Delhi, although I touch it daily while going to office but u know.. ;)

I was still in my dreams of my trip when my nokia kutted kut kut..(dont look out for the meanin of 'kutted', u wont get it. Its my creation :D)

I grabbed my sweetheart (nokia :p) thinkin it wud be some wonderful good morning message from some nice frnd but to my horror it was a call from office, saying :"Servers wud be up! Make sure to reach on time." grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...!!

This 'wonderful good morning' was enough to take me out of my laziness and take me back to morning stuff.

I finished off my saturday stuff and by 1145, and was ready to leave. I had to go with a friend, and he had been waitin for me for last 20min (we mutually decided to start by 1130, u must be wondering this makes only 15. Then how come 20..?? actually he has a habit of comin before time, knowingly that I wud be late and he'll have to wait..his choice! So these 5 min make it 20 

As I stepped in his car, he started usual cheek cheek bheek bheek about me gettin late every time. actually not his fault, he knows me just for an year but u yes u my dear friend, knows that being on time is just not my cup of tea.:) :)

With some random discussions, we managed to reach by 1215. I hurried up and reached the floor,. Now, before u start wonderin about FLOOR..lemme tell u dat my office is on 3rd floor of the buildin :) As I opened the door, I could sense every thing was on silent mode. I stepped in and it was just two of us : me n my tanhayee..

Question: where is my dear friend ?

Answer: busy outside, gettin his bag checked, pata ni kya kya lata h..!!uffff...!!!!

Working in an empty office was one of my dreams and this time it was an all together experience. Later on, after 15 min, my dear friend Soni reached. As soon as he came in, Pizza announcement happened. Do not worry, we were not gettin any pizza party but Soni declared " pizza in lunch" and we had no option as usual 

Secret: even I love to have cheese burst, but only when I place the order 

After a long interesting pizza day with some happening work, I finally wrapped up my things at 0630 and left for home.

I reached home at 0730 and planned to go for a walk in market. To be honest, intention was to shop something for mussorie trip :p

I somehow convinced Dheeraj to come with me and within minutes we were at a shoes shop   

Going through the collection there, I selected a pair for me. I got them approved from hubby (I normally ask him to help me out when these showy things try to take over my mind ) After, buying shoes I shopped for some other stuff.

By now, I was all set to go back to home. I checked my things for the last time, had veg juice with Dheeraj and started for home. As soon as I reached home I took a glance at my wonderful shopping except shoes (coz I was full confident bout my brand shoes)

I had a thot of wearin my new shoes on sunday, we had a plan to have a welcome party for Neha.

Let me introduce you to Neha. She is E's wife :) I mean Vaibhav's wife ( I hope you remember my HUHA gang, u better dont disappoint me..grrrrrrrrrr!! )

With these few activities, I gladly ended my Saturday, with excitement in mind happiness in my heart and new shoes in stack 

FUNDAY Sunday : with a smile on face, I woke up at 9. After havin breakfast, I started shufflin my cupboard to find out if I have something new for my trip. I tried hard but as usual "my wardrobe is full, yet have nothing new" :p

I checked Dheeraj's wardrobe to find out if we are sailin in boat, but but but I was really highly disappointed, he had a lot of brand new stuff  

Thereon, It took me just few mintues to realize that every new shopping need not to be included in daily stuff. I should keep some new dresses, atleast one not more, under strict custody of D for such trips (I'll make sure to do it next time onwards)

Leavin my cupboard as it is, I moved to inform D about my new strategy and suddenly the word 'cancel' found its way through my ears and gave me goosebumps. Without going into much detail about the word ‘cancel’, I started giving sad bad rad (red) expressions. It took no more than 2 minutes to D to understand my varied expressions. Without any delay, he told me about this new twist in the plan. While giving details, he left me open with two options.

Option 1: Mussorie, same thand, just two of us, non-happening place as per New Year occasion…

Option 2: Jaipur, best fit as per weather, Neha and E along, New Year mast party…

I gave a thot to these options as it was tough to decide, leaving coolest place and planning for not so cool place, to have a happening New Year eve or to have not so happening New Year eve…I was pretty confused!

With this confusion in mind, day passed and time arrived to get ready for get-together. I was ready and as planned wore my new shoes. We reached the venue on time (surprisingly!! :p) We were glad to meet Neha and had a nice time with newly wed couple. After having some chit chats and wonderful dinner, we left for home. On the way, we had a plenty of discussions about new joinee. Honestly, we were a bit apprehensive about this new gang member but after spending an eve with her, we were calm! We found her to be one of us; it just does not felt that it was our first meeting with her. With all these thoughts, we arrived home. I took off my shoes, glanced at them once again. But, this time when I took a look at my shoes, I couldn’t take my eyes off. To my awfulness, both shoes were of different shades. Shitt..!! didn’t take even a second to be out of my mouth. I again looked at my shoes very cautiously, but to my terror they were still of different shades. I took them to D to be sure that just because of confusions in my mind and after an over exciting day, I am seeing different colors. But, he confirmed that my shoes were of different shades. I recalled the evening and thanked myself for not flaunting my shoes, as I usually do. I thanked Neha for stealing all attention as no one gave a much look at my shoes, otherwise guys would have teased me. And to please, they would have continued doing so till eternity.

With lot of gratefulness and worry (about getting shoes exchanged) in my head, this incident brought a great weekend jam-packed with plenty of excitement, confusions, worries, planning, experiences to an END…!!