Beautifulness is love..!!

Often friends end up asking " What is love?" "How does it feel to be in love?" and I could just say-
 love is beautiful!!
Its a beautiful feeling to be in love. Butterflies in stomach, endless in thoughts, nothing on lips...is love.
Unsaid often becomes said. Words are replaced by silent but loud expressions.

 love is eternal!! love is pure!!

Love brings out the best from oneself.

Love is a strongest form of energy. Its a channel to meet our innerself. Love takes us to the heights.

Love nourishes!! Love flourishes!!

Be in love, be yourself!! :)

When kids get cranky

It was a wonderful day, after some snacky masti we decided to have bath. Post-bath, as a ritual it was the time for some health tonics. Lysha enjoys them. Perhaps it is the only thing that she loves in her routine and after the intake of adequate amount, I have to convince her that  we will have them tomorrow also. This time she got stuck on one of them and was just not agreeing to the deal we have. It was a tough moment. She was shouting, throwing away the things and was unmanageable.
At this point of time, an impatient adult within me tried to raise voice to get control over a cranky child. But at the same time a patient parent took her into the arms and sang our favorite song. A tight hug, feeling of being listened, coziness was just needed to calm her down and in a next minute she was relaxed and composed.

Now a question, why am I narrating this story?
Answer, perhaps in our day to day struggle we forget that a child is a purest and most sensitive form of life. They need extra warmth, extra love, extra patience from parents to blossom. We must remember that a child's personality is nothing but the reflection of love and care that he/she gets. The more patiently a child is being taken care of, the more sensitive and sensible nurtured personality he/she will be.

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Parents love is the sheer form of love. Nothing could replace it, we must remember!!

A step towards growth

Growth!! Progress!! Development!!

Correct…Makes sense!

But when to aspire “more”? When to look out for something “more”? How to identify “more”? What steps to be followed to achieve “more”?

I may not know all but through this communiqué I am trying to carve a bit of “more”.

There comes a moment engulfed with thoughts and a fight  

 to come out of the prevailing circumstance. A flash of time 

pre-occupied with questions and looking for the justification.

An effective effort tricky enough to push this moment back is a step towards growth. It has been correctly said “A journey of thousand miles start with a single step”. This single step takes the puzzled mind far away towards ‘Growth, progress, development’.

A storm in the mind and thoughts around define “more”.

“More” powerful enough to get the peace of mind back. A strong indication to calm down the storm within.

And then starts the journey towards success to progress..!! 

And then it all changed…!!

Yes, it all changed and I didn’t even realize it. Almost at the midnight of November 16, 2013 she landed in my life very quietly for changing my world. It was the moment for which I was waiting for loong. Lysha was born..!!!

She is just a baby in my lap whom I have given birth, my brain knew it very well until one day I refused to eat until Lysha would have her dinner (milk was it at that time). At that moment I realized she is not just a baby but my daughter, my precious gem, for whom not sure how many times I have sobbed.

Now, she is one and half year old young mature naughty intelligent girl who will just not do anything without her mom. When she will want to look herself in mirror she would call ‘mummy aaja aaja na’, she would grab my pair of shoes and wear one while keeping the other one saved for me, she would sleep with socks in her feet coz the other day she saw me wearing them.

She is my bright image…!!! And I am so proud of her…!!  ;)

Though she has adopted her sense of intelligence and charming looks from her father but her zeal to be naughty at her best is something she purely owns. J

I have always believed, first child is a reflection of learning and experience of parents. Whatever, parents had experienced and learnt till this point of time they try to inculcate all that as values in their child and same I envision for Lysha.

I want Lysha to be grow rich in self-confidence, thorough in sensing people, strong enough to stand for right values, indomitable for her decisions and lastly respect her parents.

With every value that I would like to inculcate in her I would be at a trial. I hope I succeeds at every step and Lysha turns her out to be a responsible and charming lady. Amen..!!

Motherhood- a word or a worLd !!!!!

Its been around 4 years now but picture of those days is still fresh in my black and white yet colorful brainy television. Even today I can very well feel presence of that dirty spook that haunted my home as soon as I completed my studies. Spook was genuinely jealous of my freedom and for this he/ she (dunno spook was male or female) started ringing wedding bells around my house. Hold on, my house was not enough for him/her and that he/she started to instigate even my relatives. Poor me! Tried to fight a lot against this ‘ME’ (its not myself wala ‘me’ but something that I learnt few days back :P) but couldn’t gain much but a lot of daatt and sympathy.

I was so scared! It was just unimaginable for me to get married, have husband and then kids. Over this getting married in joint family was like getting instead of giving ‘dahej’ (Jfyi, giving and taking dowry is a punishable act. lol!!!!! Sorry D!!! J )

Finally nothing could help me much at that time and I got married. Now when its going to be 3yrs of my marriage I can proudly say that I am one of the luckiest person on this earth to have a supportive, loving, caring, pampering husband with an even more co-operative, loving and caring ‘dahej’. Absolutely no guilt of getting married (loads n loads of touchwood!!!!!!!!)

Going back, I could recall those initial 2.5 years of my marriage which were no more than re-living my spinsterhood but this time with a license of doing more gunda-gardi and what they call ‘awaragardi’. I was happy! I was getting all liberty to be just ME(this time myself wala me). Enough space to explore myself, my interest, my personality and the world around me.

After that, over a period of time I started missing something in myself. I started exploring more and more around to satisfy my hunt. But nothing helped!

Then it was just that one moment of one afternoon when I figured it out. It was the feeling of ‘being MOTHER’ that was troubling me BIG time. Dunno when this feeling started popping up in me and I unaware of this, was wandering like anything in the search of something that was hard to be found in the world.

That one spark changed my life. Wet eyes and impatient heart, feeling of missing my own bundle of JOY were the only buddies of that moment.I could believe that being mother, being called as MOM is the only wonderfullest feeling in the world. I realized, seeing my own bundle crawling on the floor, dancing while trying to stand against the wall, saying mummum for water and huppa for chapati, screaming in JOY after looking birds, trying to use my cosmetics, irritating me, waking up in the middle of the night and asking me to play, drawing first painting on the wall, crying on the first day of the school, sharing first love story of childhood, giving a tight slap right on my cheeks and then smiling and saying ‘mumma’ are just few of the moments I would die for.

The thought that was unbelievable for me four years back, now is the only occasion for me celebrate. I never thought that ‘motherhood’, which used to be just a simple word for me, even a few months back, would re-define me.

Motherhood is not a ‘word’ anymore but a ‘WORLD’ to me.

Hoping to get the entry pass to this ‘world, my world’ soon……….

yet another weekend story...

A Wonnnnderful weekend..make sure ur tongue touches upper part of law oops !jaw :p for atleast 5 sec while saying 'n'…

Saturday morning: I was too excited coz it was goin to be x-mas tomorrow and more over just 6 days were left for our most awaited trip to Mussorie. It had been almost a year since we have touched borders of our lovely Delhi, although I touch it daily while going to office but u know.. ;)

I was still in my dreams of my trip when my nokia kutted kut kut..(dont look out for the meanin of 'kutted', u wont get it. Its my creation :D)

I grabbed my sweetheart (nokia :p) thinkin it wud be some wonderful good morning message from some nice frnd but to my horror it was a call from office, saying :"Servers wud be up! Make sure to reach on time." grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...!!

This 'wonderful good morning' was enough to take me out of my laziness and take me back to morning stuff.

I finished off my saturday stuff and by 1145, and was ready to leave. I had to go with a friend, and he had been waitin for me for last 20min (we mutually decided to start by 1130, u must be wondering this makes only 15. Then how come 20..?? actually he has a habit of comin before time, knowingly that I wud be late and he'll have to wait..his choice! So these 5 min make it 20 

As I stepped in his car, he started usual cheek cheek bheek bheek about me gettin late every time. actually not his fault, he knows me just for an year but u yes u my dear friend, knows that being on time is just not my cup of tea.:) :)

With some random discussions, we managed to reach by 1215. I hurried up and reached the floor,. Now, before u start wonderin about FLOOR..lemme tell u dat my office is on 3rd floor of the buildin :) As I opened the door, I could sense every thing was on silent mode. I stepped in and it was just two of us : me n my tanhayee..

Question: where is my dear friend ?

Answer: busy outside, gettin his bag checked, pata ni kya kya lata h..!!uffff...!!!!

Working in an empty office was one of my dreams and this time it was an all together experience. Later on, after 15 min, my dear friend Soni reached. As soon as he came in, Pizza announcement happened. Do not worry, we were not gettin any pizza party but Soni declared " pizza in lunch" and we had no option as usual 

Secret: even I love to have cheese burst, but only when I place the order 

After a long interesting pizza day with some happening work, I finally wrapped up my things at 0630 and left for home.

I reached home at 0730 and planned to go for a walk in market. To be honest, intention was to shop something for mussorie trip :p

I somehow convinced Dheeraj to come with me and within minutes we were at a shoes shop   

Going through the collection there, I selected a pair for me. I got them approved from hubby (I normally ask him to help me out when these showy things try to take over my mind ) After, buying shoes I shopped for some other stuff.

By now, I was all set to go back to home. I checked my things for the last time, had veg juice with Dheeraj and started for home. As soon as I reached home I took a glance at my wonderful shopping except shoes (coz I was full confident bout my brand shoes)

I had a thot of wearin my new shoes on sunday, we had a plan to have a welcome party for Neha.

Let me introduce you to Neha. She is E's wife :) I mean Vaibhav's wife ( I hope you remember my HUHA gang, u better dont disappoint me..grrrrrrrrrr!! )

With these few activities, I gladly ended my Saturday, with excitement in mind happiness in my heart and new shoes in stack 

FUNDAY Sunday : with a smile on face, I woke up at 9. After havin breakfast, I started shufflin my cupboard to find out if I have something new for my trip. I tried hard but as usual "my wardrobe is full, yet have nothing new" :p

I checked Dheeraj's wardrobe to find out if we are sailin in boat, but but but I was really highly disappointed, he had a lot of brand new stuff  

Thereon, It took me just few mintues to realize that every new shopping need not to be included in daily stuff. I should keep some new dresses, atleast one not more, under strict custody of D for such trips (I'll make sure to do it next time onwards)

Leavin my cupboard as it is, I moved to inform D about my new strategy and suddenly the word 'cancel' found its way through my ears and gave me goosebumps. Without going into much detail about the word ‘cancel’, I started giving sad bad rad (red) expressions. It took no more than 2 minutes to D to understand my varied expressions. Without any delay, he told me about this new twist in the plan. While giving details, he left me open with two options.

Option 1: Mussorie, same thand, just two of us, non-happening place as per New Year occasion…

Option 2: Jaipur, best fit as per weather, Neha and E along, New Year mast party…

I gave a thot to these options as it was tough to decide, leaving coolest place and planning for not so cool place, to have a happening New Year eve or to have not so happening New Year eve…I was pretty confused!

With this confusion in mind, day passed and time arrived to get ready for get-together. I was ready and as planned wore my new shoes. We reached the venue on time (surprisingly!! :p) We were glad to meet Neha and had a nice time with newly wed couple. After having some chit chats and wonderful dinner, we left for home. On the way, we had a plenty of discussions about new joinee. Honestly, we were a bit apprehensive about this new gang member but after spending an eve with her, we were calm! We found her to be one of us; it just does not felt that it was our first meeting with her. With all these thoughts, we arrived home. I took off my shoes, glanced at them once again. But, this time when I took a look at my shoes, I couldn’t take my eyes off. To my awfulness, both shoes were of different shades. Shitt..!! didn’t take even a second to be out of my mouth. I again looked at my shoes very cautiously, but to my terror they were still of different shades. I took them to D to be sure that just because of confusions in my mind and after an over exciting day, I am seeing different colors. But, he confirmed that my shoes were of different shades. I recalled the evening and thanked myself for not flaunting my shoes, as I usually do. I thanked Neha for stealing all attention as no one gave a much look at my shoes, otherwise guys would have teased me. And to please, they would have continued doing so till eternity.

With lot of gratefulness and worry (about getting shoes exchanged) in my head, this incident brought a great weekend jam-packed with plenty of excitement, confusions, worries, planning, experiences to an END…!!

Fiserv..after 1 year!!

It seems as if it was just yesterday when I got an e-mail from HR briefing the interview procedure and me confused on that e-mail gathered all my courage to revert back to HR and asked if I am called for the interview. On receiving confirmation, it was like opening an unexpected door. In my full excitement and with all preparations, I reached Fiserv to appear for interview. Interview process was quite cumbersome and I could recall my bad reaction when I was told that there is still one more round pending. Yes, you guessed it right!! I got irritated and made faces. This good news was passed to me by the person who took my first technical round and luckily I could not hide my reactions from him :) :) :) for doing this, fortunately every fortnight I am made to recall that incident grrrrrr!!

Now some you might think why am I being made to bring that exciting incident back in my mind and who is that brave person to do so. This person is none another than my TEAM LEAD and the same guy who took my technical and informed me about that one more round    Just for fun and with the motive of teasing me, he would just not miss the opportunity to remember this incident and I would not miss opportunity to defend myself although I fail whenever I try to do so  

After my joining, as expected from a new joiner I was nervous and in panic!! I had certain standards set up for me and expectations from myself and every day, it seemed to be a fight to come up to those expectations and standards. I could remember my training sessions where I expected to learn about product and every time I used to end up with just lots and lots of yawns in my full spirits 

I remember, once even I slept in the mid of training and when I woke up I started nodding my head so that the trainer could not see my sleepy eyes and yawning face :P

Confused and anxious me, in initial days didn’t know what to talk, when to talk and to whom to talk. I was badly missing my breakfast chit chats, gossips, long long irrelevant senseless discussions. I felt as if I had to behave like any two year experienced serious professional who has lots of knowledge to share with new team. Eyes of team of 10 members + 1 manager were always on me as if I was the only prey for them. Every evening, before leaving for the day I used to have killing session with my then manager. It was like ending up with a test where you know all the questions but when it comes to answers you try to cheat. And guess what, cheat from other’s copies who are equally dumb as you are..he he !!

By God!! Those sessions with manager still make me get goose bumps. Excitement of the whole day used to get over with very first question. I felt to be back in college. To answers utmost one question, I started making notes. Imagine, me making notes!! Goshhhh..

At that time, I experienced some unwanted changes in me like reaching office on time, wearing formals, talking less, listening more, just smiling instead of showing baring teeth.   I missed my personality soooooooo much.

Now, its been ONE year..!! yes ONE year of my association with Fiserv. I have almost changed. Changed my chatting habits, changed my dressing style, changed my party style..almost every trait of my persona has changed and I am just not liking it !!

To begin with, I want you all to know a major unexpected change.. My team lead is my best buddy now  and I hate the fact that I am friends with my ‘lead’.. he he !! ab masti karte hue bhi lagta hai k ‘masti’ task k against kitna time report karna h time sheet me :P Breaks me feel hota h k coffee productive work me kaise count karani h :P mere PJs k liye GPS me kitna score milega ?? he he..!!

Its funny!! But this is the best part of my relationship with Fiserv.

Here go some more unexpected changes 

1. I can never be seen in formals, my jeans seems to be best

2. I can never be seen quietly sitting on my desk

3. Chai after office is an unavoidable task

4. Masti with Soni ( I hope u remember him, I introduced him in my previous write up) is an essential part of office hours :P

5. Giggling and cracking PJs are one of the productive things that I unforgettably do :P

6. I have started doing gunda-gardi 

7. I have started playing pranks ;)

8. Oh!! Not to forget..i have started adding a ;) at the end of messages :P this is my most significant achievement :D

Now, you can expect how considerably I have changed rather improved my hidden talent :P

Thanks Fiserv!! Whole heartedly THANK YOU !!

I remember, when I joined my target was to spend two years in Fiserv and then move on. But, now I just did not feel like thinking of any other option. It seems to be best. Best experience, best thought, best wish..everything appears to have wrapped up here.

Somehow, I am experiencing heights of dosti, heights of appreciation, heights of stupidity, heights of pagalpanti, heights of everything  

It seems that, yes!! This was something for which I have been looking for all these years. Interesting work.. mad frnz who plan every weekend to visit psychiatrist :P gunda gardi..mara peeti..teasing..fighting..argue at every topic yet YADI   BESTEST of YADI..!!

With all this is in heart and dosts in mind, I wish to spend many more coming years here in Fiserv but of course with them.

NO frnz NO Fiserv !!

bak bak

For a change, this time I was in no mood of thinking :P . Tired from ample amount of work in office, lots  of tea breaks and peaceful lunch, GOD knows from where the hell these ‘E n E’ came and compelled me to pen down. Actually keys down !! :P

Hold on, before you start itching your head lemme tell you about these two ghosts.
These ‘E n E’ are nothing but dear “Excitement and Enthusiasm”. Ghost because, they can
not be seen nor touched but just felt. There presence could be just sensed. They can intervene
in life at any time and to any depth they wish to do. These can not be avoided when they
enter life neither they can be called upon when required. But, one thing for sure, they would
never dare to come when they  are most required and will always come when, by heart not required. “wrong timing”..u c !! :))))